hi everyone! i m in trouble and i need help ..fast ! so here s my story ... when i was around 4 years old i played with some magick... unfortunately i ve kinda broken my aura and a malevolent entity got inside me. i can t fix my aura by myself becuz i have to get that entity outta me first. i m not really possessed by now but i can feel it inside of me. when i try to do good things, there s usually no result, but when i m evil, that entity gives me the power i need and voila! everything s done in an instance... it s necessarily only to think at an evil thing... so that s how i was to kill my cat and now my mum! i dunno what to do... i wanna be a good "kiddo" as much as possible but sometimes that creature makes me act unlike me. i m still afraid of an exorcism ritual becuz that entity has stayed inside of me since i was a kiddo, so i guess it s part of me now. another problem i have is that everythin i do from spells, rituals etc turn out to be black magick, even though this is the last thing i ve ever do.
First, you say that you're afraid of an exorcism because the entity's been with you for so long, it's part of you.
THAT THOUGHT HAS TO LEAVE YOU NOW. As long as you consider that entity a part of you, it will never leave.
THAT ENTITY IS *NOT* PART OF YOU.
Repeat that mantra. "This entity is NOT part of me." Repeat it every day, morning and night, as many times as you need, and when you feel yourself slipping, repeat it again.
Now, once you've completely convinced yourself about that - and not before, otherwise you'll just be wasting your time - you must sever the link between you and it. You can seek out an exorcist. You can perform a ritual to rid yourself of it. As long as it works and that YOU have faith that it will work. Important: YOUR will is the key element in ridding yourself of that bugger.
If you fear it, if you surrender, you are giving it power. Resist, and when it tries to control you, mentally produce a flat *NO*. And push your will against it until it gives in. It will weaken it. You see, this is YOUR body and YOUR life, and it has nothing to do in it. Taking control of yourself will strengthen you and weaken it, because YOU are entitled to this incarnation, and it is not.
Also, since you are having murderous thoughts, you must seek outside professional help. THIS IS IMPORTANT. Talk about it to a psychologist, a doctor, anything. It's not fun to go to see those, because we are all afraid of the "mentally ill" label, but you know what? When you know you have a problem and take action to fix it, you're not crazy, you're just being responsible. Don't wait until you actually pick up a weapon and kill. Seek help now. And fight, fight, fight, because you know the difference between right and wrong, obviously, and ultimately, it is your Higher Self which should have the last word.
This message you just posted is a show of responsibility. :) You are on the right track, so keep going!
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