My first communication

    I had been studying and honoring Her for several years when in January, 2004, I had my first Totem animal communication.  I had attended a Native American seminar on Totem Animal Spirit Guides and wondered what mine was.  I thought it might be a cat or dolphin, animals I had an affinity for.  That night, as I fell asleep, I asked to be visited in a dream by my guide.  The following is what I wrote in my journal on Thursday morning.  "I have meditated for 5 nightes on having my totem animal revealed to me.  Last night I dreamed I was a teenage girl and returned to my family's beach house and realized I had locked two Egrits inside with no food or fresh water.  One was drinking nasty plant water.  Instead of beautiful white feathers, one was covered with dried banana tree leaves.  I cried at their condition. 

    Then, my mother gave me money to go buy some food but, as I started to town it was dark and I didn't want to walk the dark road alone so I went back inside and my younger sister said she would go with me.  Her boyfriend was coming too so they could go to a movie.  Our mother said we had to take our youngest sister and from the conversation I realized we didn't have much money.  

     Then, our beach house sat on a high rocky cliff.  Looking out, I saw a tidal wave coming.  I grabbed a child's hand and as I left I grabbed up blankets and carried them with me.  After the wave came and receded, my mom came in and wondered why all the mud was on the floor."  End

I knew my question had been answered and the Egret was my guide.  I figured that they were dying because at the time, I had been creating some lectures on the environment for class and marsh animals are the first to show signs of stress from water pollution.  Research on Egret revealed they are solitary birds, only getting together to mate.  They have long, thin, but very sturdy legs in order to walk around in all the mud and muck.   I am in my 50's and my mother passed away when I was 28, so I didn't know why I was a teenager and my mom showed up in the dream.  We never had a beach house but, I associate Egrets with the beach.  Tidal waves are symbolic of turbulence in your waking life and I was raising three teenage daughters at the time so there was lots of turbulence.  That explained to me the part of my protecting a child from the tidal wave. 

While I was absolutely thrilled that the lovely Egret was my guide, I realized that this communication had a much deeper significance.  It was the first time I had asked a specific question of the 'Universe' and it had been answered.  There really was 'something or someone, out there.'  And, I could communicate with 'it.' (which I now know 'it' is specific energy frequencies)   What a comforting affirmation!  This event intensified my spiritual journey.

It wasn't until recently though, that I really got a true interpretation from this dream.  This year has been my most magic and intuitive period with deep inner clarity.  I saw an Egret at the beach this summer and realized that Egret came near the beginning of my spiritual journey to act as my inner guide.  This spiritual journey towards balance of Feminine and Masculine energies is truly a solitary one and it can lead one through lots of mud and muck.  It is also a 'dark' journey into the underworld or inner world of the subconscious.  In my dream, I was a teenager again because Tarot has taught me that teenagers are the most open to new knowledge.  My 'mother' in the dream was symbolic of the Universal Mother.  That I needed to buy food was the spritual sustenance I would find and my 'sisters' were all the real women who would guide me as well as learn from me on this path.  Male energy showed up as a 'boyfriend' because one must seek balance in everything.  That I realized we didn't have much 'money' in the dream was symbolic of my lack of spiritual Wisdom.

     Six years after the dream, I have finally gained enough insight, Wisdom and intuition to understand the original message and realize just what an impact it has had on every aspect of my life and my journey. I encourage everyone to keep a journal and review it once in a while.

     Many other guides have gifted me with their Wisdom since Egret came into my life but, Egret, with Her peaceful fortitude' still guides me on this most marvelous journey.  Blessed Be!!!  Gaia'l