Sight Update and Randomness

So I went to the doc yesterday and got a decent update, well at least for me anyway.

The gist of it is that I no longer need to keep my head down, which is proving to be hard as i've done it for three weeks now, and I can sleep on my side indefinately now. He commented on how most people 'cheat' and don't do what htey're supposed to do, but of cousre as this is a matter of my sight coming back or not I probably overdid my instructions and would never cheat asmuch as i wanted to or hwo painful it was on my neck and back at times or hwo bad I slept face down.

This is both a good and bad thing becaue I have soem blood in the front of the eye that needs to settlet ot he bottom so he can see the abck fo the eye, it clouds his view to the back adn he relaly watns tos ee back there to check up on things. Monday I go b ack again and hoefully it will have settled, otherwise i'm going to have a minor procedure to wash it out. This could be minor or a bit more so depending on hwo I handle being awake witht hem probing around my eye with sharp objects..

I'm pretty tough, I can handle a lot of pain, super high pain toelrance for some reason, but I am extremely squeamish about being awake in anys ort of surgical thing, it stresses my nerves out. I can't even handle them lasering my eye when they have had to, it is bearable but VERY stressful during the moments.

But anyway, that is msotly it for now, as he commented, my doctor that is, it is out of both of our hands at this point and we have done the best we can for nwo. I might need anotehr surgical procedure for some stuff starting to build up agian, not nearlya s long as the five hours, but it will require taking some of the oil out they put in adn putting it back in. Hopefully I could be knocked out for it... I am just oo much of a coward to stay awake for it, even if I can't feel anything but tugging or soemthing, it just is not comfortable sounding, espeically the intiical local anastetic shot to numb the area...

In other news and randomness... while I am here thinking about it...

I slept wodnerfully well alst night, and thnks to seleping on mys ide i'll eb sleeping like the dead for a while and sleeping longer, which is a good thing. I have really needed the sleep, big time. It has put me in an amazing mood today, depsite al itlte back irritation from being on my sdie adn twisting the wrong way.

I need to get to thinking of osem awesome questions for Z for the twenty questions pagans tonight shows in the future and have come up with a couple so far. Hoping my creative juices get to flowing more though, I want to thikn of some that wil be quirky, fun, entertaining and thorught provoking too.

The hard part of it is thinking of good pagan based ones, so some might end up just being silly random things. Mmm, just thoguht of antoehr good one to ask as I am typing, good....

anyway, speaking of Pagans Tonight, I'm thorooughly enjoying it, as always, and am working up quite the reputation as the new stalker, which I hopefully assume is a good thing. I am happy to be the stlaker if its the "oh look its our stalker" type not the "Oh gods not her agian" stalker type lol.

Seriously though, PT has really kept me up beat, happy and recharged. Most nights if I feel slightly down or in a funk or just needing a spiritual boost, it always fills it no matter what the topic is. Weekends are espeiclaly fun when I get ot help Z out and play unofficial cohost with him...

I realize since he invited me on that one time I have sort of um, horned in on it since, except the nights he has the special guests like Christopher Penczak and such, but I have LOVED every bit of it even if I'm nto teh msot articulate on air.

It seems i have gained ahandful of nicknames thanks to the show from empath girl, stalker, cohort to the living laugh track. The last one I have to laugh at every time because it's true it enver takes much for me to get into giggling on air over something. At least i haven't snroted like i sometimes do... hee hee.

Actually, as 'stalkerish' as i am I love the show, appreciate all the hosts putting up with my constnat calling in adn commentary and the constnat giggilng. I'm happy to help out whenever i can and provide another voice or just randomc aller when thigns seem slow. I wish I had found them sooner.

Oh and anotehr note on teh stalker bit, I haven't lived up to Z's stalker legacy yet, since I never called in fromt he hospital the night after surgery,t hough i wa tempted... that would ahv ebeen a fun conversation as that weekend was extremely fuzzy in my head, the anastetic really hit me that weekend, plus I as croaky as heck from the breathing tube...

One of tehse days I"ll live up to Z's stalkerness in a GOOD way and hey maybe move onto being the mascot.

But for now I think I hav ebabblted enough. I had mroe planned but mom dropped off lunch and it is now invading my mind... mmm chili on a chilly day, hee hee.

Love LIght and bLessings for now.